OK, I’m doing a bit better now.
I did the whole wallowing in self-pity, this is all my fault, I’m such a fuck-up sad bastard thing for a couple of days. Went home, fell asleep, woke up, ate something, brushed my teeth, fell back asleep thing on Monday and most of Tuesday. I maintained radio silence (obviously, for those of you who tried to talk to me only to get no response) just because I didn’t want to have to explain everything. I still think that getting stood up was partially my fault, but I’m doing better with that. Regardless… I’ve thrown away her number. If she was that appalled at my nervous laughter or something came up, she could have at least had the common courtesy to respond to my call and say WHY she wasn’t showing, rather than just not answer or give an explanation. I just see it as a sign that I’m not supposed to date anyone and need to, as I had preached so strongly before, focus on myself.
Lynnie and Bobby dragged my ass to Trivia Night, where Team I Care Not took first place against our nemeses, Nuclear Waste, I Love Beer… BEER!, and We Are Cracked (the guys who are there every week with us) and the others… Jackyard Backoffs, Short Skirts and Chapped Lips, Cunning Linguists, and a lot of other terrible double entendres. Bar Cash for us, and I felt useful ’cause I helped answer a lot of questions that no one in their right mind should know (but I do anyway). Plus: I had Newcastle Brown, and Newcastle Brown cures all ills. I also had ice cream and blissfully ignored the fact that I’m somewhat intolerant of lactose and paid for it later, but damn it, I needed some sugar.
I still should’ve known the answer to “What’s the title of the song that contains the line ” Yeah, your alias says you’re Captain Jean-Luc Picard of the United Federation of Planets” (The answer: “Banditos”, by The Refreshments).
So yeah. In a nutshell:
I deserved an explanation and didn’t get one, thus all bets are off, even if her reason was me.
Not dating, time to renew my focus on myself.
Trivia night is awesome.
Newcastle Brown is doubleplus awesome.